Month: August 2002

I’ve now been up 27.5 hours and counting. I had a 20 minute nap 12 hours ago. *sigh* Oh well. I’ll live. D&D tomorrow, I’m unprepared (as usual) and uncertain as to whether I’ll be conscious for it.

I’m 22.5 today. Hurm. Looks like my accomplishments for biological year 2002 (as opposed to fiscal year, y’know, I set my one-year time frame… yeah.) will be a slight shift in direction, from wandering aimlessly in no particular direction, to wandering aimlessly in the general direction of goals. (Like that? Wandering aimlessly in a chosen direction?) *shrug* I dunno, maybe I can find some direction in the utterly TWISTED idea I co-created tonight at game. Doubt it.

Decided to alter this site’s focus a little bit (just a little bit). I think I’m gonna use it more as a blog (gawd I hate that word. Dunno why. Just hate it. Kinda like that little shit who whispered “I see dead people” in The Sixth Sense, which I refuse to see ’cause every time I saw the commercials for it I wanted to reach into the screen and throttle the living daylights outta the little shit. Yeah. That. This parenthetical is hereby terminated on the grounds of being entirely too bloody long.) or a LiveJournal, which means more frequent and (frequently) less philosophical content. Dunno if that’s good or bad or neutral, but ‘tever.

P.S.: It really is a shame about the kid from The Sixth Sense, because I have a great deal of respect for writer/director M. Night Shyamalan solely on the basis of Unbreakable.

Yeah, so anyway, life in general. Planning on D&D tomorrow, banking and chilling with a friend on Sunday, maybe plans for Monday, undecided beyond that. Played a Cheapass Game today (DeadWood, I think?) and discussed kew comics. No GamenStein, ’cause no Jeanne.

Maybe I’ll merge the weblog stuff with the ramblings. I dun wanna, ’cause they have a different feel (to me, anyway). Maybe I won’t. Maybe I’ll add a section. I anticipate that sometimes I’ll have trouble telling a weblog entry from a rambling (okay, so the feel isn’t SO different), which will suck. Like that entry from 8/16/02 could go either way. There’s enough short-term stuff for the weblog and enough long-term stuff for ramblings. Hrm.

If I keep up with the weblog, mebbe I’ll sort entries into pages by month. Maybe I’ll get a real LiveJournal. Maybe I’ll just kind of run out of steam and not update for months on end. Who knows?

Okay, enough rambling (weblogging?) for now. Time to try to nap. *sigh*

Insomnia, ennui, frustration, and general dissatisfaction with the world at large and my situation in particular are the order of the day. Let’s take a look at what’s been going on:

• Web Design – I’ve been going through a bit of a web design crisis recently, which is a BadThing[tm] given that I make a living as a web designer. I’ve recently gotten it in my head to update all my web sites to XHTML 1.0 Strict with CSS2 in order to be in line with modern standards. This has produced a great deal of frustration for me as I attempt to use CSS to do all the things I used to do with HTML, and particularly with tables. Bleah.
• Insomnia – I got 7 hours of sleep last night. That’s the most I’ve gotten in a day in nearly a week. I’ve been terribly tired all week long, bailed on work twice, and left two hours early once. I’ve put in a grand total of 6 hours of work this week, and most of that has been unfocused because I’m just too bloody tired to concentrate, and unproductive due to my web design crisis.
• Weather – It’s hot. It sucks. ‘Nuff said.
• Unfinished Projects – I have quite a few of these, which I’ll explore in-depth below. They’re all vying for my attention, and I haven’t enough to spare to give them ALL a fair shot.
• Money Concerns – I’m just scraping by right now financially. I’m not in any particular financial danger, I’m just accustomed to living more comfortably than I am right now. When I think about things that I want or need that cost more than about $10, it’s a case of long-term planning. I need a new bed or mattress, I want some books on XHTML and CSS, I want a couple of new D&D books, I want a new computer table or desk, etc.
• Tech Industry – I miss my old job. This is partly related to the above, and partly due to my web design crisis. The tech industry is in a bad place right now, and I’m not sure if it’s a localized phenomenon. No one is hiring like they were in ’99, and I despair of ever getting back into the tech industry proper. Web design is getting me by, but it’s not my calling.
• More…?

Okay, now for that Unfinished Projects thing.

• Learning Latin
• Learning CGI
• Learning CSS2
• Overhauling all my web sites
• Reading Cryptonomicon
• Tidying my room